Barbara Bowman woman, it won’t take “30 years.” But right now, with 14-in, I’m 16 away from that…and that’s scary to know…
Behind the “entertainment,” that I give, I’m on a mission here…and on this Internet-a mission way bigger than silly memes, futile FB friending, frivolous Twitter gum-bumping, Instagram flossing and trying to be popular and famous for you. I know the pitfalls, evils, and realities of the fame game well over you (the ones on here trying to be “famous”). While what I do might seem “famous” to you, I’m on a different mission than you (or what you assume about me). Through entertaining you, I’ve had to filter the seriousness of my ordeal through my talent. I’ve had to use my talent and savvy to build access. The fear of my force and fight-back wasn’t felt until I gained access…IN THAT REGARD…I WON. I’ve successfully done that since 2009..It began to work around 2011/2012 (and continues to-tough, in 2014). It shipped a biatch off to the sand…despite the fact that I (behind the scenes) fight my fight against a force (monetarily and famously) bigger than me (no thanks to you—the bamboozled)-so the mission’s not complete.
But since 2009 I’ve methodically, patiently, and meticuolosuly, via savvy, talent, skill [and creatively] have been like the :57 though 1:57 of this video
…but rather than “living in the past” (reverse, or turning back time)–repairing my life and world all across this Internet and www-getting this dealt with in ways you have no idea about (behind a soft, famous, seemingly gentle and harmless smile, surprise pop-up appearances, glitter and glam, Boos)…
You have NO idea what the literal hell I’ve been going through…So I know that woman’s pain when she says: “Why Did It Take 30 Years for People to Believe My Story?” What a shame. What an effing shame…I know that pain-all too well.
But until and when…because of what I am up against (the starstruck and bamboozled), I have to play this “game”-this media access and “literary game” about how it ALL began…(that even since then-has extended far worse and over where even those pages end)…
I have to “entertain” the starstruck while working to build platforms in order to filter through who I AM, versus who people made me out to be (without ever even so much as seeing my FACE) simply because it was about a celebrity that went TOO FAR-living a bizarre, unbelievable, sick, sick, SICK lifestyle (with help doing). Too far, and into some horrific unimaginable things while flying under the radar of “crazy” (all made possible to hide behind because of you guys’ starstruckedness and not even connecting the odd dots that are right in front of your faces). Yet, the one who died…got the “crazy” label, died with the label (and even the nickname to match it). Knowing what I know, am experiencing, and enduring (and know of other’s too)…I will forever be baffled (and saddened) by that…about as baffled that not even my loyalty and willingness to understand was enough to spare me what I went through. There’s no evil compared to that. I never experienced that kind of evil in my life, until this. I never dreamt it possible (except in the movies). Where else do they do that at?
You people have no idea what is going on right beneath your noses…Smh…
And until these truths come out (that I watch daily) by the mouths, lives and experiences of others that are in no way connected to me and my story, I have to play the game.
The only solace that I find in it is that it’s working day-by-day. Things have been going on that you know nothing about. I find solace in the fact that my resistance, persistence and fight made it hot-and she moved to the sand. So it wasn’t all in vain, despite what I’ve lived, and the pain that came with it. The unfortunate part about that is that now, other people are victims of her evil that, over there (unlike here), can’t fight (or resist)…
It’s coming out, but that’s it…
The shameful part is, now, there is NO fear. None. Nada one. All living arrangements, moves, and movements are being/have been put into place that said person, won’t ever have to come back over to the states to face the music-ever… They laugh, having done it, and doing what they are doing…right beneath all your starstrucked noses and merely appearing and slipping you royal fairtytale fantasy and “new life” bliss.
You people don’t know the half of the evil…done too much to turn back and doing much too much to even want to…(and got loyalty, the resources/finances, and help doing it).
Ignorance is bliss. So carry on: ignorant.
I carry on knowing that the pen is mightier than the sword (or fame, fortunate, and the bamboozled)…
At any rate. Back to the “entertainment” of it all…
And let me [get back to] playing my “role”:
Ok, soo unlike The Queen Latifah Show, who offered cancellation reasons about Cosby not being apart of the show, David Letterman doesn’t offer reasons, or how, or why he books (or cancels). Just know that Regis Philben will fill in for the Cos on November 19.
The once respected and revered tv father and comedian will continue to get disrespected and dissed because not only is he being charged for raping women, over the years, he has had some pretty stiff, kirt, heartless, mean and cruel things to say about the black community and the black community (even the ones who grew up watching The Cosby Show), have no love for him.
So with these allegations, he’s looking like quite the hypocrite-having such a strong moral compass he feels the black community doesn’t (and should) abide by yet, he’s out here raping women?
That doesn’t add up.
Needless to say, although two media outlets canceled on the Cos, NPR allowed him to interview (on Saturday, November 15) but not without
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